Perspective

The last month and a half has been a never-ending whirling dirvish of insane activities and sudden stops for illness. Why do these things always converge right as the rush of the holiday season picks up??? And, once one thing goes the tinsyist bit wrong, it feels like everything else snowballs like an Olympic downhill skiier? I don't know either.

But, I do know it's embarrassing that I haven't written anything since Election Day. My grand experiment to write daily or weekly to get the creative juices flowing has been floundering. Not that I haven't come up with several great blog entries...I just haven't seemed to have any control over what I do all day until I fall into bed around midnight. Hmmmm, sounds like a new year's resolution is lurking in there somewhere....

One thing I have gained perspective on is no matter how much you try and how hard you work, you just can't make things always go your way. As adults, we are supposed to accept this and work with this and move on in an adult way. Too bad there's no manual handed to you at 21 to tell you how to do this. The specifics of my posting? Doesn't really matter...isn't it always changing for each of us? It does for me. And I don't think a weekly laundry list of how I've failed for the whole world to read (okay, the three friends of mine who read this) isn't really productive or classy.

But, I do know that as I look back on 2006 - a year I can't wait to say good-bye to - I have been afraid to be confident
I have been afraid to ask for things I should have asked for, and had a right to ask for, of myself, my clients, my family, my boyfriend
I have put myself last
I have let fear and anger rule me

I am not proud of these things and look toward a new day, month and year to make changes. And isn't that the best thing about a new year? No matter how bad you sucked up the past year, you always get the chance to start anew and decide to make this coming year a little better than the one you are finishing. I love that about January, the new year. It is so full of promise and hope.

My sacred hope and prayer for myself and all of you is the courage to grab the opportunities in front of each of us and make 2007 a great year...or at least a good one...

God Bless in the New Year.